My name is Snow. I need therapy! I thought the best way to get some was for me to blog about my life and what is in my head from day to day. So I was thinking today, what happened to all the fairy tails in the world. Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty. Found Prince Charming and All of these ladies got their happily ever after. Well in a land far far away called real life, we are not so lucky. Prince Charming is not charming, he is a real jerk!
So a little background on the reason this blog has came to be.
Many many years ago in a time far away there was a girl who met a great boy. She was so young and did not realize that this was the one, her Prince Charming. Well she dumped the prince for the toad that came along promising love ever after. That toad treated Snow like dirt. He eventually dumped Snow and went to treat her not only like dirt but a doormat that he could wipe his feet on when he wanted. Snow found the Prince who seemed to have moved on now and was happy. Snow fled the land to clear her head and find that mirror that seems to have lied to her many times now. She found solace in NY with many wonderful people that told her she was worth loving.
Snow, still believing the Toad left the city to return to the land that left her broken. Prince Charming was gone. He had left the land with another princess and Snow thought she would never see him again. even more broken Snow wandered the land for many years alone and just trying to find a purpose in life.
Some 15 years later with the aid of the internet (who needs that mean magic mirror anymore) the Prince found Snow and made her smile for the first time in years. Things seemed fine and snow found herself happy. People around thought they saw a change in Snow that was so wonderful. Snow realized how much of a mistake she made all those years ago. that her heart had never healed completely because this Prince still had the key. But something happened. Snow found herself alone, seems the Prince did not want Snow around as much as she thought. Was it a cruel trick on Snow for what she had done to him so many years ago, was the Prince just as bad as the Toad now? No one is sure..
So this fairy tale stands unfinished. I sit here wondering what happened to this prince and why in the world I am beating myself against a brick wall once again to get attention. Are all men jerks? I don't want to believe it. I miss this guy more than I can say and I guess being that we are many miles apart does not help but why does it have to be this way? Why can't he just tell me to either back off and go away or I don't know.. that he is just not interested.
Why do men find he need to jerk women around. It has happened for years. Women do it to men as well. It is not one sided. No one says what they mean anymore. You can't just tell someone how you feel whether it is good or bad. games have to be played and hearts get broken for no reason.
I put my heart on a shelf long ago and I thought I could take it down and dust it off...I was wrong. I am hoping that this blog will help me figure out just what I did wrong. I don't think i did anything wrong really. I just think that maybe I need a plane ticket to find out. What would he do if I show up on his doorstep one day...heart in my hand..offering it to him with all the love it has to give..who knows. But folks..that is the plan. I am working to that end. I am not giving up on this guy no matter what he may think.. So be warned fair Prince Charming. This Snow White is not going down without a fight..or at least an answer to this riddle.
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