This time I wonder???

Dreams are just not enough.. When your young and you read the fairy tales where the handsome prince saves the princess, you dream that your life will be like that. That you will find that one person to make your dreams come true. Problem with that is that sometimes the princess has to make her own dreams come true and then find the prince she deserves.

I think every woman deserves happiness. But you can't wait on a man to give it to you. Mostly, because men just are not reliable. Men don't get that women need to be told they care, shown they are worthy of our love and trust. My friend "flyboy" tells me he tells his wife that he loves her and sometimes she has trouble believing that he is being honest. I told him that he has to tell her daily, show her how he feels, not just expect her to know. We don't read minds. Guys, no matter what you think we don't have powers like that. We can burn you with a look but we can't read your minds. Primareilly this is because a man does not think with the head on his shoulders and well we can't see through your pants to get to the brain.

So if you can't tell by reading this post, the prince is not really back in the picture. he popped in said Hi and vanished again. I am upset bu not complely gone like I was 18 days ago. I am pissed this time. I am motivated to make him regret ever causing me a moment of unhappiness.

In a land far far away, there lives a prince who went on holiday only to come back and not care that he left the best thing that ever happened to him alone and hurt. will I ever let him read this blog? Not sure. You ask, do I tell him how I feel, well I would if he would give me the chance. Right now I am thinking that he does not care how I feel. That is not a great feeling.

There has got to be someone to understand this. Someone to say "Snow, your insane." I think mainly these ramblings are just my way of trying to stay sane. I I sat and thought about all of this I would go nuts. So I am not sitting and thinking. I am acting. I am going to go about my life like nothing is wrong. that I don't cry myself to sleep because the one person i thought would never do this to me has after all let me down. Is it because of the past? Is it because of me now? Am I not worthy of love?